October is “Breast Cancer Awareness Month”……182,000 women will be diagnosed with breast cancer this year!
One question I’ve never asked myself is “WHY ME” – but rather “Why Not Me?”
When I read the book, BREAST CANCER - Is it What You’re Eating or What’s Eating You?, by Susan Silberstein, PhD, the excerpt below reiterated my thoughts precisely:
“There are probably many reasons why breast cancer has risen dramatically in the United States since the early 1970’s. One of them likely involves the fact that it is also since the 1970’s that millions of women have faced the additional stress of working full time. With myriad new pressures, such as trying to please a demanding boss, going back to school, birthing and raising children, being a good spouse, keeping a home, and caring for aging parents, these women not only have too much on their proverbial plate – they just have too many plates! When and how do these women have time to take care of themselves? It is as if the breast cancer comes along to literally get their attention: “Please notice me and my needs!” WOW, was this ME or what!! Even before I read this, I said this very same thing to myself! This is likely the ONLY way I would have ever slowed down…..anyone reading this having a “light bulb” moment???
“There are probably many reasons why breast cancer has risen dramatically in the United States since the early 1970’s. One of them likely involves the fact that it is also since the 1970’s that millions of women have faced the additional stress of working full time. With myriad new pressures, such as trying to please a demanding boss, going back to school, birthing and raising children, being a good spouse, keeping a home, and caring for aging parents, these women not only have too much on their proverbial plate – they just have too many plates! When and how do these women have time to take care of themselves? It is as if the breast cancer comes along to literally get their attention: “Please notice me and my needs!” WOW, was this ME or what!! Even before I read this, I said this very same thing to myself! This is likely the ONLY way I would have ever slowed down…..anyone reading this having a “light bulb” moment???
Back in August my beloved Aunt Margie was diagnosed with cancer. We talked about her upcoming treatments and some of the reactions I had already experienced. She often told me that "we would get through this together". She was one of my biggest supporters on my journey and she had her entire church praying for me. On August 4th, she started on her own journey, but sadly, 5 days after her first chemo, she passed away on September 1st. I still hear her gentle voice of encouragement and faith. I am so blessed to have had a close relationship with her and I miss her every day.
October 18, 2009: Today was the 6th annual "Take A Hike" and benefit brunch for the non-profit organization, "BAG IT!" My daughter, Lori and my grandson, Logan went on the nature hike and I met them for the brunch. The guest speaker was David Fitzsimmons, Cartoonist for the Arizona Daily Star.
This organization is committed to providing information and education to newly diagnosed individuals with cancer and their families. The information contained in this site and in their bag is designed to help patients cope with their diagnosis, and empower them to become an active member of the treatment team. The helplessness of being a "victim" begins to diminish with this type of support.
Their slogan is: "Fight the Fear". For more information about BAG IT or to donate go to: www.bagit4u.org
Now a brief update since I last posted to the blog.
September 8th -- treatment #3 – at the ½ way point the tumor has shrunk by 50%. Does this mean that it will be near zero when my chemo is complete?? Dr. Brooks seems to be really pleased – as you might remember we weren’t even sure that the chemo would work at all.
September 29th -- treatment #4 – two thirds 2/3 finished with the chemo. I may be getting used to the side affects and reactions, because the worst affect from treatments 2, 3, and 4 has been the anemia. This is likely to continue until I complete the chemo and the “poison” is out of my system. Since it is not an iron deficiency, taking iron tablets, eating liver or green leafy vegetables won’t help. The shortage of oxygen in my blood causes my heart to race (sometimes my heart rate is as high as 128), which is followed by my lungs work harder and I get short of breath. When my legs feel like rubber, I just need to sit or lay down until everything calms down!
1.) Took the dry clothes out of the dryer, draping them over the laundry basket so they wouldn’t wrinkle.
2.) Laid down for ½ hr.
3.) Carried the basket back to the bedroom.
4.) Laid down another ½ hr.
5.) Sat in the chair & folded.
6.) Took another ½ hr to rest.
7.) Put 1/2 of the clothes away.
8.) Sat down for a few minutes.
9.) Finished putting the rest away.
It only took 2 hrs for what is normally a 10 minute task, but I was determined to get it done in the same day.
The debilitating migraines - that I experienced after chemo #1 - have tried to re-appear for a couple of days after each treatment, but I have been able to keep them under control with the Imitrex. THANK GOODNESS!!!!
Labor Day – we spent the weekend at the cabin….here I am wearing my “coonskin” cap given to me by Don and Bette Day. They had picked up on an earlier comment I made while trying on wigs: "I feel like Daniel Boone". They apparently thought that I should have one of my very own. The hat was actually quite toasty since the daytime highs on Mt Lemmon were only in the low 60’s. Being able to spend time at the cabin - even if it's just going up for the afternoon to sit on the front porch to read and look at the view (see below) - has proven to be really very peaceful and “therapeutic”.
September 8th -- treatment #3 – at the ½ way point the tumor has shrunk by 50%. Does this mean that it will be near zero when my chemo is complete?? Dr. Brooks seems to be really pleased – as you might remember we weren’t even sure that the chemo would work at all.
September 29th -- treatment #4 – two thirds 2/3 finished with the chemo. I may be getting used to the side affects and reactions, because the worst affect from treatments 2, 3, and 4 has been the anemia. This is likely to continue until I complete the chemo and the “poison” is out of my system. Since it is not an iron deficiency, taking iron tablets, eating liver or green leafy vegetables won’t help. The shortage of oxygen in my blood causes my heart to race (sometimes my heart rate is as high as 128), which is followed by my lungs work harder and I get short of breath. When my legs feel like rubber, I just need to sit or lay down until everything calms down!
1.) Took the dry clothes out of the dryer, draping them over the laundry basket so they wouldn’t wrinkle.
2.) Laid down for ½ hr.
3.) Carried the basket back to the bedroom.
4.) Laid down another ½ hr.
5.) Sat in the chair & folded.
6.) Took another ½ hr to rest.
7.) Put 1/2 of the clothes away.
8.) Sat down for a few minutes.
9.) Finished putting the rest away.
It only took 2 hrs for what is normally a 10 minute task, but I was determined to get it done in the same day.
The debilitating migraines - that I experienced after chemo #1 - have tried to re-appear for a couple of days after each treatment, but I have been able to keep them under control with the Imitrex. THANK GOODNESS!!!!
Labor Day – we spent the weekend at the cabin….here I am wearing my “coonskin” cap given to me by Don and Bette Day. They had picked up on an earlier comment I made while trying on wigs: "I feel like Daniel Boone". They apparently thought that I should have one of my very own. The hat was actually quite toasty since the daytime highs on Mt Lemmon were only in the low 60’s. Being able to spend time at the cabin - even if it's just going up for the afternoon to sit on the front porch to read and look at the view (see below) - has proven to be really very peaceful and “therapeutic”.
October 20th: The date for treatment #5 – I’m expecting the normal 6-7 “down” days as usual, but hope it’s no worse that the last 4……we’ll see. I’ve had about 12 days this cycle that were pretty good.
Some Miscellaneous Observations:
Through the first three treatments, (about 7-8 days after each treatment) my white blood counts always dropped to very low levels around 1100 to 1700. (Normal is somewhere between 10 and 15000).
One week after treatment number 4, however, ALL of my measured blood counts (white & red) were at historical low points. Fortunately by day 10, these counts had come back up considerably (although the red blood cell counts had actually dipped a little lower) and my oncologist, Dr. Brooks said that I "was out of the woods".
Unexpected good news - my hair has never fallen out COMPLETELY. Personally, I think what I’ve been left with makes me look like a cross between a Marine recruit, and a chimpanzee. My hilarious husband says “No, chimps have more hair”. While my kind, caring granddaughter Teryn, tells me I have the head of a newborn baby, with just a few “thin or bald spots” where the hair has rubbed off.
Some Miscellaneous Observations:
Through the first three treatments, (about 7-8 days after each treatment) my white blood counts always dropped to very low levels around 1100 to 1700. (Normal is somewhere between 10 and 15000).
One week after treatment number 4, however, ALL of my measured blood counts (white & red) were at historical low points. Fortunately by day 10, these counts had come back up considerably (although the red blood cell counts had actually dipped a little lower) and my oncologist, Dr. Brooks said that I "was out of the woods".
Unexpected good news - my hair has never fallen out COMPLETELY. Personally, I think what I’ve been left with makes me look like a cross between a Marine recruit, and a chimpanzee. My hilarious husband says “No, chimps have more hair”. While my kind, caring granddaughter Teryn, tells me I have the head of a newborn baby, with just a few “thin or bald spots” where the hair has rubbed off.
Fortunately, (and surprisingly) I still have my eyebrows and eyelashes. Though they seem a bit thinner than normal, they have at least won out over the chemo! I'll never complain again that my long eyelashes rub on the inside of my glasses. Back in high school I actually used to trim them with nail clippers. I know, I know -- what a curse!
This chemo part of this process will at last be coming to an end with my last (#6) treatment scheduled for Nov.10th. I am sooooo ready for this part to be over! I don't know where the summer has gone.
This chemo part of this process will at last be coming to an end with my last (#6) treatment scheduled for Nov.10th. I am sooooo ready for this part to be over! I don't know where the summer has gone.
Next, there will then be approximately 3-4 weeks before surgery (which is tentively planned for the first part of December). Following the surgery will be the 6-weeks of radiation, which will likely start sometime in January.
That's it for now. I will try to keep the blog a little more active in the future, but please don't be concerned if you don't hear anything on a regular basis. All is well, and even under the circumstances I feel like a very fortunate lady.
As always, I am reminded daily how fortunate I am to have such an incredible support group!
As always, I am reminded daily how fortunate I am to have such an incredible support group!
